sadboyrepeat

spent myself

spent myself

hands around my neck
this summer’s heats got me sweatin’
a chokehold only my baby can weaken

good boy intentions
mixed with boozy emotions
classic me, I abandon them like a suicide mission

yeah– maybe we can figure me out
and maybe you can give me what I want
see the gravity here and we can push it

laser beam style
we got the night at our mercy
got my girl sitting pretty
dreaming on a star
spinning those records hard
order another G&T
pray for the suffering, juniper to lime
olive to sea, free Palestine
fuck the apartheid

snap another picture,
pretend it’s candid
but you — be posing [explicit]

got me going so hard, 
smile from the heart
jump in my car, 
another drink at another bar,
a line in your kitchen, 
another at a strangers house

the magic is the medicine
get me out of my head
and all of this becomes spent

slow walk up to impress; exhale
teeth to bottom lip persuasion; inhale

house lights obscure the truth
deep down I know I got you too
and we dance in your living room
throwing it back
while we throw them back
heart attack but keep it couth

go low, go slow
higher than fuck love 
but we don’t give a fuuuhhhhh

forgetting about who we are
reminiscing who we were

hurting for the world
that noise is blinding

spending money
like it doesn’t hurt

have you to dream about 
in my arms, head to heart
circle the hairs on my chest
let me fall apart

but the signs are getting loud
and I see you get up in that button up of mine
need some Bayers to quiet the sound
explosions going off as I am losing hard

sbr-spent-myself

#JAC #bar #life #love #original #pain #poetry